15 July, 2015

Ready to Go!

Who would have thought getting on a schedule would be so dang difficult?! Sheesh.

But is has been and that is mostly because of the new job. It's been frustrating to say the least, but I know it will get better. Just have to take it one step at a time.

Having said that, this started my first week back to trying to get myself back on track. Because so much of what has been "blocking" me from getting back to my workouts and emotionally eating everything in sight, I've decided to keep a journal JUST for this journey. I have another journal that I write in nearly every night before I go to bed, but this different. This is something bigger that needs its own space. And I need to have the workouts and progress right next to the words to prove to myself that I'm much stronger than I feel.

And THAT has been one of the biggest walls in front of me right now.

Getting out of my own head and out of my own way.

I mentioned the other day that I have been struggling with running because of the half marathon training program I had signed up for. The problem was, I'd go for my run, feel like I'd done really well and then look at my time and pace and realize that no, I'm still pretty damn slow. And then I would get frustrated with myself that I still need walk breaks and that I wasn't getting any better and blah blah blah. All the same 'ole self defeating thoughts I've dealt with my entire life.

But the worst part about it is that I really LOVE running and working out. Or used to.

I want to get back to that feeling. I miss it.

And this week its happening. I getting myself on a schedule and we are sticking with it. I'm supposed to be out of work by 3:30 with the new job and pass by the gym on my way home. Even if I get in a quick run on the treadmill or spend some quality time on the elliptical, it'll be worth it. No matter what I have going on. I'm going to make it work.

The plan is....
Monday: Cardio at the gym
Tuesday: CrossFit
Wednesday: Cardio at the gym
Thursday: CrossFit
Friday: Cardio at the gym
Saturday: HIIT
Sunday: Off

I've been getting in some good strength training with CrossFit (it helps knowing what the WOD is before deciding to go on a particular day) and my friend Sarah has been a great motivator to get me to the CrossFit sessions. It's nice to have someone in my corner again.

Hopefully this is the start of getting myself back to feeling comfortable in my own skin again. It's definitely a journey and a process and something I have to work hard for. But I know in the end, it will all be worth it.






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